The Unwanted Human

There are many effects

That the world has

Upon the human.

 

One such effect

Is the following.

 

A human gives his life

To some people,

Be it his children and family,

Or others . . .

 

And he finds over the ensuing years

That they are largely indifferent,

Unappreciative,

And even resentful

Against him.

 

He did not do it

For expectation.

 

He did not do it

For a return.

 

But, after all,

He is a human.

 

And while he is certainly imperfect,

And has certainly made his share of mistakes,

The punishment seems to grossly and egregiously

Outweigh the crime.

 

For years and decades,

The human blames himself.

And second-guesses himself.

And gives the benefit of the doubt

On one occasion

After another

After another

And another . . .

 

But the acknowledgment

That he did anything at all

Never appears.

 

It would appear to a bystander

That the more this man does for another,

The more he suffers.

 

Despite the lovely words,

And despite the hope that he placed in them,

The bumper stickers

Turned out to be just that.

 

The “do for others” thing

Quite frankly . . . ruined his life.

 

For if he had been dismissive

And callous

And non-giving at all,

He could with relative ease

Accept his fate.

 

But to accept such a fate

Having done the opposite,

Is as inhumane

As the fate itself.

 

The spiritualist

Will come calling

With his incense

And flowery talk.

 

Telling the human

To do

Without expectation.

 

But the human truly did not do

With expectation.

 

It is one thing

Not to receive acknowledgment

For good deeds done with sincerity.

 

It is another

To be blamed and resented

For having done them.

 

The spiritualist may keep shouting

His flowery phrases.

 

He need only be punched in the face

Repeatedly

Until he develops a frown,

And a snarl,

And reacts in self-defense.

 

When he frowns,

Snarls,

And reacts in self-defense,

He need only be asked,

“Why are you frowning, snarling and fighting back? Did you give me your advice with the ‘expectation‘ that I should be nice?”

 

The human

Did not have any choice

To give his life

To those he gave it to.

 

He had no choice

But to give them everything he had.

 

He had no choice

But to have concern

And to think of them

Day and night.

 

It was simply

Not a choice.

 

He did not have expectation.

He did not do it to get something

In return.

 

But,

He is a human, after all.

 

And while he did not have expectation

Or hope

For a return,

He also did not have expectation

Or hope

To be blamed and resented,

And tossed aside.

 

He did not expect

To end up

Unwanted.

 

As no sane

Or reasonable human

Would.

 

What is such a human

To do?

 

Where is he to go

From here?

 

Anything that he is told to do

Or to practice

Or to engage in, in order to take away his suffering

Is an outright insult.

 

For it diminishes

And minimizes

The weight of his suffering.

 

Prescriptions

Are a spit in the face.

 

What the human is experiencing

Is a direct look

At life.

 

A direct look

At the ways of the world.

 

A direct look

At how people are.

 

A direct look

At what may or may not happen

From giving.

 

Did the human do anything wrong?

Every human does things wrong.

Every human makes mistakes.

 

But his giving

Was giving.

 

And, one could argue,

From this all too common scenario

That he was never forgiven

For having given.

 

It is all about learning The Truth.

The Truth about what may or may not happen

Despite the nobility of one’s intentions.

 

The Truth

About what life is

And is not.

 

The Truth

About what people are

And are not.

 

The Truth

Is the only Real path.

 

The only path

Away from being blindsided.

The only path

Away from suffering.

 

All else,

From spirituality, prescription, and self-help

Is entertainment

And lies.

 

Such things

Can only lead

To greater and greater suffering.

 

The Truth

Is the only thing

That provides the opportunity

To truly Live.

 

The Truth

Is the only thing

That allows an opportunity

For Freedom.

 

Namaste.